My sincerest apologies to those I hurt and pee'd on
If I flirted with your friend, and had u lead on
Some might be asking is he nuts? or is he gone?
kinda both, but I will address that as you read on
You see I'm out here floating wit no one to ground me
That fact that I made it this far, I smile proudly
I am strong willed to handle tough days
But more and more I realize, If Cali was a sushi house, I'm french fries on a buffet
When I try to be me, people deniably speak
Then I try to get up with them, they hide and retreat
Now it feels tha total focusing, is causing me to hopelessly
Feel like I'm bogusly, bugging out like locust be
It puts u in a position where u feel outta place
Sometimes wit no word, I wanna vanish without a trace
I've learned that u cant lose sight, when u dialed up
Cuz that one mistake can cause a 20 car pile up
So SELF, we're focused, put nothing in between us
Concentration goes on Work, School, and Jesus
Was it a must I write thru this tough time, shit yes
Cuz this is when I'm down, cuz I miss tha Midwest
And this is tha LAST TIME, I act out on lived stress
And to vacate my chair for a while, I think it is best
Its not justification, its putting a middle finger up and replacing, tha suck with amazin
So to anyone that feels left out and alone
Start wit that base and build u a home
Knowing I'm tha cause, I'm also tha effected
Acknowledgement to change, and so I must correct it
All I ask is forgiveness, and hopefully whut that'll do
Is help to move on, while tha attitude is gratitude
If not, let it burn as if heating up calories
Just don't judge tha one that questions their reality…